this is like my second post in an hour . like WTF ?! but , I seriously feel like crying now . FUCK SIA . this always happens to me at this hour . so fucking unlucky . very unlucky . Mir cn you like please get a grip of urself . such a weak , weak girl . hate you for tht . cn someone tell me why this is happening . I see all those things alone every night , and then be hurt all over again . tkde keje laen pe Mir ?! IDK why I'm doing this to myself. Its pure torture yet I'm still not stopping . FUCK , I have to stop . everyone tells me its fucking he's fucking useless and all but wht cn I do if he cnt fucking get out of my mind huhh ?! it stays and nvr go away like some drug in you . fine , he won . I lost . you've hurt me . time and again. always had . and always will . I'm not as strong as I thot I cn be . boy I feel soo fucking stupid right now . everything's so fucking screwed up . life is just fucked up right now . get this inside ur head Mir , YOU will never , ever , ever be as good or pretty or skinny or better as her ohkayy ?! if you dont get it , go hit ur head against the fucking huge wall . thts what its for (: